I See Me Now

There comes a moment when you stopped seeking validation outside of yourself.

I’ve always enjoyed being seen. I basked in the feeling of being adored. And he, well he was someone I looked up to. He was significant to me.

I could sense his presence even without seeing him or hearing him. Just knowing he was near made my heart flutter. My eyes lit up when I see him. Our banter was effortless filled with unfiltered laughter.

He taught me about life and patience. He saw me in a way I have never seen myself. When he called my name, I existed even more.

Looking back now, I realized he awoke parts in me I had forgotten.

The fire! The passion! The sensuality! The wit and the wilderness!

But it wasn’t mine, it was borrowed. I was simply reflecting what I saw in him.

Now, things have shifted.

I think of those fond memories with warmth, but I no longer crave his attention. Because something more powerful is happening. I am finally witnessing myself rise.

I come alive when I speak about things that I love. I move to my own rhythm. I no longer sit at tables that don’t welcome me. I choose my lipstick with intention and I own every room I walk into.

I am not waiting on anyone. I do not orbit around those who don’t align with me.

I am the light.

To me, that is the most liberating truth of all.

I see me. I love who I am becoming.

Unapologetic! Radiant! Rooted in Love! Undettered!